Many times in my life I had to learn who to trust and who not to trust. I'm the type of person who is very social and open minded therefore i attract alot of attention. However these people that I come in contact whether it be in school or work I consider to be associates. Associates are people that you only deal with just for fun (like going out. I generally call these people fillers.) It takes a lot for me to trust someone because I've been betrayed by people very close to me. I used to be very naive and I thought everyone was my friend. There was one particular boy named Eric I grew up with from diapers who I truly thought I could trust but I would soon find out how wrong I was. I don't feel comfortable sharing this story so bare with me please. Earlier this year I was "talking to" someone and ironically he just graduated from Columbia. I told Eric how much this person meant to me and how I truly thought I found someone just for me. Anyway me and this guy were supposed to hang out one day and he stood me up and I was pissed about it so I confided in Eric about it. He came over to my house and I put my phone on the charger and walked away and the next thing I knew was he stole my guy's number out of my phone. The next day I come to find out that he was basically pursuing the guy I was in the process of dating. So I'm sure you would imagine I was quite hurt about the ordeal and I actually spent like five days crying about it because I couldnt believe someone I trusted could betray me like that. Even after everything happened I chose to forgive him and try to move on but he kept being shady and I had to let him go. Not only because he was trying to talk to my guy (I kicked his sorry ass to the curb too just in case your wondering) but it was because he showed me that I couldnt trust him to be the friend I needed to be especially with all the things we've gone through. When his father died I was there for him or when he just needed a shoulder to lean on I was there for him. I was very hurt because I lost someone I was close to and someone I considered a confidant. It's taken me a long time to get over it and I'm actually still in the process. I can relate this to True Notebooks because on page 41 Francisco spoke about his homies and how he thought they were real friends until he got lock up. "Ever since I got busted, I have never received a letter or personals from my homeboys."(41) I kinda feel this way when it comes to Eric because at a time when i just wanted to confide in him he just took it as an advantage to go after my guy instead of being the true friend I wanted him to be.
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